I know a new year doesn’t guarantee a change but I do think it’s a great time to reflect and reevaluate things. As I reflect on this past year I realized I wasted A LOT of time on I don’t even know what.
For example I spent literally weeks and days and hours researching and agonizing over essential oil diffusers thinking they would be the cure all for my son’s frequent colds and the chaos that occurs when he is sick. I finally bought two and have literally used them for less time then the time I spent researching them. Turns out they didn’t make life easier and cure everything like I thought they would. Even when I did use them my son still kept getting sick and the chaos keeps going on.
Same thing with these amber necklaces to help my daughter teeth and me get rid of systemic inflammation. I spent so much time researching and trying to decide which ones to get and we don’t even wear them. Turns out I’m going to have to eat healthy and exercise to get healthy and my daughter is going to drool and have pain while she teeths, no matter what necklaces we wear.
The list of things like this could go on and on this past year, wasting time trying to escape reality, neglecting the people I care about while trying to find ways to protect myself from things being hard and always trying to find some elusive way to have complete control of everything. All while forsaking the things that will really help and bring about change.
Moving into 2015 I really want to spend this time I’ve been blessed with wisely. I know it sounds frivolous with diffusers and necklaces but based on the amount of time I wasted and the stake I was putting into these things to make things easier I realized there’s a lot more going on in my heart than what was meeting the eye.
My prayer is that this year will be a year of finding true contentment in what is, freedom from fear of what “could” happen, and a year where some of mine and my husbands innermost hopes and dreams come true.
I hope everyone who reads this has a blessed New Year and that 2015 will be a year full of positive changes and progress!